Awesome Day :)

This morning Grace and I went to church with Brittany, Jessie, and Sami. I really had no intentions of leaving her in the nursery before we left for church, but once we got there and I saw all the toys and things they had to do and met the people who would be watching her I decided it would be okay to leave her. The people were so nice.. they were excited that they were going to have another baby (there was only one other, named Grayson coincidentally lol), so I could hardly tell them no. I told them that I had never left her with anyone she didn't know, but she assured me she would be fine. It felt good to actually be able to listen to the sermon without having to pull out toys or fix a bottle, but I still caught myself wondering about her. When church was over I went back and she was asleep! When I walked in the lady goes "I'm sorry, but I am going to have to take her home with me. She is just a doll, and she is about one second away from walking isn't she?" She went on to tell me that she did perfectly fine. She said she didn't cry once, and loved climbing on all the stuff they had for babies and playing with the toys. I was relieved to see that she did just fine. It is nice to think that I can have that hour to learn more about God, and not have to worry about how she is doing. I cannot wait to go back next week! I hope my car is fixed by then..

In other news.. we switched Grace to a bigger car seat today, and she loved it! She loved being able to actually sit up and see what was going on.. sleeping in it was a bit of a challenge for her though. Her head was all cocked sideways, but she didn't seem to mind.

Lastly, a little while after church Chris came and picked Grace and me up to take us swimming. It was Grace's first time in a pool, and she loved it! At first she was a little apprehensive, but she didn't cry or anything. A couple of times she accidentally got splashed and she didn't like that at all, but she loved floating around in her floaty and playing with her water toys. After about 45 minutes she got cold, and wanted to get out, but I consider that a definite success for the first time in a pool!

After we were done at the pool Chris took us back to my house, and actually stayed for a little while. We watch the premier of Kate Plus Eight lol. We also ate dinner and talked for a little while. He is begging to be back with us, and I told him my head wants to be, but my heart is guarded. I have been hurt by him so much in these last few months, and while I am confident that I could survive it again, I in no way want to have to. He assures me that he will never hurt me again because he has changed.. which in some ways I see. He does things he used to do back when we first started dating like open doors for me, and then he does some things he has never done.. He held Grace while I ate, he got her ready to get in the pool which involved changing her diaper, he even got down and played with her on the floor (he has absolutely never done that before) and I could tell she loved it!
I do miss him so much, and we have had fun in these last few days, but I just don't feel that it is time yet.. I need to be positive that I won't get hurt again and that Grace won't have to witness the fighting or tears anymore.