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Thursday, February 3, 2011

Stealing Brittany's idea..

My teen years before Grace.. I think this is fitting because today is my 19th birthday :) My last teen year.. kind of sad to think about, but at least I won't be the"teen mom" anymore.

Anyway.. lets start with some pictures..

Life was so simple then..

Proof that I was a size 0 lol. I do not have a tattoo..I drew that there. I was so cool :p

I used to take the weirdest pictures

And of course I had a million mirror pics.  

I was never very popular when I started school. I was shy and quiet. I waited for people to talk to me, and ended up with some pretty bad friends (trouble makers).. I was always a good kid though. I always made good grades, never drank, did drugs, smoked, or anything like that. Even though most of my friends through 9th grade did. By the time I hit tenth grade I knew they weren't who I wanted to be around.. I started breaking off from them.. I was actually sort of a loaner through the beginning of 10th grade.. started making some friends in the end of 10th grade though and these people put me on the map. I got nominated for Junior Princess and I thought I was all that.. I didn't win, but I was one of five girls who got nominated so I was proud. Then I became the talk of the school when I got pregnant at the end of 11th grade. I didn't want anyone to know, but I told my (at the time) best friend.. and she told EVERYONE.. some friend. She doesn't even talk to me now. But anyway.. I wouldn't confirm or deny because it wasn't their business.. My belly confirmed it for me when I came back after summer for first semester of senior year.. The rest is pretty much stuff you guys know..

I think the one thing some of you guys don't know is that I have this thing about me that makes guys fall in love.. I am not trying to brag, and I don't even like it. I have only had five "boyfriends" and only two of those were serious (one being Chris). But I have had something like 10 guys tell me that they were in love with me.
My first boyfriend and I dated for a little over a month.. it was like dating a wall.. we never talked outside of school much less went on a date. I never talked on the phone with him once.. somehow though he started telling me he loved me.. what?? Okay.. and I "broke his heart" when I broke up with him. Then I started dating another guy (Devin).. I really liked him, but about two weeks in we had a major miscomunication and broke up.. The major thing was that his best friend told me Devin was going to break up with me, so I texted him and told him that if he was going to do it he needed to go ahead and do it. He asked me if that was what I wanted and I told him I didn't want to be with someone who didn't want to be with me. So that was it.. come to find out that when Devin asked me out it he did it behind his best friend's back who apparently wanted to ask me out. So the best friend told me that and it wasn't even true... I was so mad at Devin for like a month so I never knew that. He didn't even want to break up with me lol.
Then I started dating this guy named Derek T. This guy didn't go to my school, but he was the only other serious relationship I have had besides Chris. I really thought I loved this guy. Then he kissed another girl, so we broke up. It just broke my heart (or what I thought was broken at that time).
Then I started dating a guy at my school again named Derek P. He was definitely a rebound and I feel awful for it now because he wa totally in love with me. He wrote me a freaking song! Lol. But I broke up with him after about a month.. I had been talking to Derek T. again and he swore he would never cheat on me again.
I was dumb and I believed him.. we got back together and he ended up cheating on me with five girls that I know of (like actually sleeping with them), but that wasn't the worst thing.. I used to go to his house and his sister would leave us there alone. I had never done anything except kiss a guy, and Derek T. pressured me A LOT to do stuff. He would stick his hand down my pants or up my shirt and I would have to stop him (probably didn't help that we were macking on the couch :p but still when I say no it means no). (Caution.. TMI/awful) So one day he took me in his sister's room to "listen to some music" and we were laying on her bed when he got on top of me.. he was holding my arms down with one hand and kissing on my stomach. I asked him what he was doing and he said nothing. Then he asked me if I could "feel that" he was talking about a specific part of his body that he was pushing up against a specific part of my body. Then he started trying to unbutton my pants with his other hand.. I kept telling him to stop, but he wouldn't. I was terrified and I started crying.. when he saw me crying he finally stopped. He told me he was just messing around, but I do NOT believe that.. Now I know nothing actually happened, but for a girl who had never done anything.. I was tramatized. We broke up after that.
All of this happened in 9th grade. Then the summer between 9th and 10th grade is when I decided I wanted to be single.. but no one else wanted me to. I had Derek T. pressuring me to get back with him, and 6 other guys pressuring me to go out with them. All of who told me they were in love with me! So weird! Then I met Chris at the end of the summer and the rest is pretty much history. It took some convincing to get me to go out with him, but I did, and I can't imagine what life would be like if I hadn't.. We will have been together fo 4 years in July.


But that is me in a nutshell lol. My life is so different now that it amazes me, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

6 comments:

  1. OMG Happy BDAY!!! I feel so old.
    Okay just let me say that you were super skinny (sooo jealous) and no wonder they were in love with you...can I just say gorgeous...in a non lesbian kinda way. HAHA! Im am seriously jealous. I would have loved to look like that. Chris is one lucky daddy = )
    With your genes and her crazy personality Grace is going to be miss all that.

    Do you ever look back at the old belly pics and be like...I really looked like that...is a stomach that size even possible...look at the skin so tight...amazing...and then of course you feel all gross afterward and like you are the size of a hippo...or is this just me?????
    I really need to get some pics from my momma of me (she probably wont give them up...she is stingy when it comes to her pics...) but my story is a lot like yours. No drugs,alcohol, cigerattes,etc. good grades...but you probably got them the better way...
    I had problems with guys like that too...still do...I dont know what it is

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  2. Lol I'm jealous of my own pictures.. if that makes any since.. I definitely do not look like that anymore.. Not fat, just not like that :P

    And YES!! I know exactly what you mean!! Skin without stretch marks.. hips that aren't wide enough to fit a train through.. a stomach that's flat :p Apparently it's possible, but I can only see it in pics :( Lol.

    I just recently lost one of my stalkers after he had a baby of HIS OWN! He got mad at me when he found out I was pregnant.. you know why? He told me it was supposed to be his baby!! Creepy! Guess he got the baby he wanted so bad.. lol. Now he leaves me alone.
    The other one.. yes I have had two.. still pops in and out of my life. He will not forget my phone number, but I don't want to change it because I've had it since I was like 13. Everyone I know has that number.. I don't want to have to inconvenience myself because he's nuts. He really will not leave me alone. He even has his brother trying to get my info now.. since I moved in with Chris he doesn't know where I live and he is doing everything he can to find out! Before I moved Chris saw him on my street (where my mom lives) one time.. That street is a dead end and a bunch of old people live there! Chris got mad because he thought I had him over.. UMM NO! He creeps me out.. This dude used to be my best friend.. then he got weird when I started dating Chris.. and just kept getting weirded lol. After Chris said he saw him on my street I felt like I was being watched or something. He knows weird things too, like what Chris' old car looked like, and that I drove that car sometimes. Just CREEPY!

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  3. Christina: I wanted you to steal that post. That's why it said, "Let's Talk" lol.
    Oh and from what I have heard, once a teen mom, always a teen mom. It sucks.
    Anyway, you left my brother out of the story. Remember when he had a crush on you? lol. You are really different now. I didn't know you before, but from the pictures, you can really tell.
    Jessika: Yes, I do feel that way. I hate my stretch marks. I have tried everything. They have been trying to fade. It's been 2-1/2 years! Come on, when can I wear a bikini again? NEVER! lol. Samantha looked at them the other day and said, "Ew, who did that?" I was like, "You! You did that. It took you 9 months, but you succeeded." lol She just laughed and walked off.

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  4. Brittany-HAHA that is funny. Kaedyn did it to me. After I had Kaedyn the girls had plenty of room to grow without stretching me out more. I gained 38lbs with Kaedyn!!! He was huge!! HAHA. My stretch marks arent to bad though. I really dont have that many just mostly on my sides. I think my skin color kinda hides them. But what gets me is the stretch out skin...it kinda makes me look like I have a pouch...like I can feel my muscles underneath but their is this fat(its really where my skin had been stretch) that will hang over pants when i sit down. It is sooo annoying. And love handles....where did those come from...please dont tell me i am the only one with love handles and not so tight skin.

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