Life..

I figured that the transition from one child to two children would be extremely hard. I had every worst case senario in my head.. Grace was going to hate me, start acting terrible, try to hurt the baby, etc. etc. Chris wasn't going to help anymore than he did before. I wasn't going to be able to keep the house clean. Never going to be able to leave the house.. Everything was just going to be horrible in my head, but amazingly it's not!!

Chris has been amazing. He gets up with Grace at night, helps me clean (not a lot, but more than he did before, so I'll take it lol), changes Grace's diapers, and pretty much gets whatever she needs like drinks or food, he doesn't stay on his game all day and will actually ask me before he gets on it, sometimes cooks dinner, and the best thing is that he has been so sweet. He usually has a short temper. He has it under control, but I figured adding another baby to the mix might bring out the bad in him again, but it hasn't. He has really grown up since Grace was a newborn :)

And with Grace, she really is doing great! She loves her little brother and it is just precious! She can't say brother or Brentley yet, but she calls him "baby" lol. She would never say baby before I had him, but now she says it :) She loves to give him hugs and kisses, pat him, tickle him, cover him up, try to feed him her food and drinks (lol), and even hold him. I helped her hold him the other day, and ever since then she will come up to me, hold out her hands opening and closing them, and then pat her chest. It is so cute!! I try not to let her hold him too much though because she doesn't really understand how to be gentle yet. She tries to squeeze him. The only thing she is not good at is being quiet. If I get him to lay down on his own she usually wakes him up being loud, but I can live with that.

And Brentley is a really good baby. He only cries if he's hungry or when he's getting his diaper changed. This kid HATES having his diaper changed! He screams bloody murder the whole time. It's not a big deal though because he stops crying as soon as I pick him up. He's a champ at eating, however he does prefer my left breast to my right breast so it takes him twice as long to eat on the right because he fights it. And one good thing is he actually likes to be covered while eating, so feeding him in public is a breeze. He's a good sleeper too. If Grace doesn't wake him up I can get him to sleep on his boppy for about 2 hours, which gives me time to pick up the house and spend time with Grace. And at night he usually sleeps at least 4 hours at a time. Last night he slept for 7 hours straight!! It was so nice to get that much sleep! On bad thing is that if he's awake he has to be in my arms.. he'll let Chris hold him for maybe 15 minutes, and you can forget about me putting him in his bouncer/swing. He'll sit there for about a minute and then start crying lol. At least I can get him to sleep in his boppy or I'd never get anything done. (And yes, I know it says not to let them sleep in it, but he only does it during the day where I can watch him).

The only thing that is not going so great is cooking. It's like Brentley has a radar for it. Anytime I even think about cooking he wakes up. Hopefully that will get easier as time goes on.

All in all I feel like my life is perfect. I never realized how amazing it would feel to have my family complete. I am so glad I got pregnant with Brentley when I did. I always wanted my kids about two years apart, but we were going to wait until I got out of college. God had different plans for us though, and he is never wrong. He knew what my heart truly desired.

Ugg I hate this place!!

I cannot wait until our lease is up because we will be moving! We are renting, and in that agreement they are supposed to fix any problems. Not to long after we moved in we realized that both the front and back doors would leak whenever it rained hard. Water would come in and run everywhere if we didn't stop it. They insisted on just replacing the weather stripping over and over for months, which NEVER fixed it. We had to have a spot in the floor by our front door replaced because it was sinking in due to water damage (and it took them 2 months to do that). Then our wall, yes wall, in our bedroom started leaking!! After about a month they finally replaced the siding for that, and our room stopped getting flooded. Then just before Brentley was born they FINALLY came and replaced both of our doors, but left the trim off one door, and the wall paper got ripped because of it. It looks awful. They finally put the trim back on, but the wall paper is still ripped.

Now taking a step back.. a few months ago lightning struck our place and blew Chris' xbox. We assumed it was just a fluke of nature, saved up money for a new one. Then when the guy was replacing the doors we noticed something.. he had plugged his power saw into one of our outlets.. everytime he would run it our lights would get dim. Okay that's weird, but we didn't even connect it. Then just the other day we had a neighbor over. Our TV was on, but we weren't watching anything. It was just a blank screen. Well the screen flickered, and then the TV was just dead. We couldn't even get power to the TV. We took it to a repair shop to find out what is wrong, and he said a surge completely fried the motherboard??? What the heck?? Basically our 42" flat screen is just a giant piece of junk now! We knew then that something is wrong with the electrical stuff in our place. Then today our other 22" flat screen was acting weird. The screen would randomely go black, then come back on. We didn't know what to do. Then Chris was cooking dinner.. we had the TV, living room light, kitchen lighten, and kitchen fan on. When Chris turned the kitchen fan off it made the TV go black??? He did it again, and it did the same thing. I am terrified that our place is going to catch on fire because of all of this crazy crap!! We called, but since it's labor day they aren't open :(

Then to top it all off, get this! We thought the door problem was over, but no! It's been raining all day here, and water has been, once again, pouring under the back door. At least it's not coming under the front door, but it gets better! Apparently our "new" doors are NOT weatherproof! You can see water stains on the INSIDE of the door now, AND the doors are now swelling! You can barely open and close the front door now!

And yet it gets even better! I walked into Brentleys room to change him and saw something wet. I was about to murder the cat because I thought he had peed in the floor, but then I flipped the light on. There was water covering Brentley's floor!! Chris started looking for the camera to take pictures before we cleaned it up. By the time he found the camera the water was completely across Brentley's room and a foot out into the hallway!!! Omg, I am furious!!!

It wouldn't be a big deal if I could trust them to fix it quick, but I can't! I have no idea when they will come to fix any of it. Our place is either going to burn down or float away before they get their crap together, and we just have to keep giving them our money every month :( It's really getting ridiculous!
Sorry guys, I just needed to vent.

Already??

There is no way Brentley is going to be one week old tomorrow?? I swear I just gave birth an hour ago lol.
He had his one week check up today (no idea why they sceduled it a day early, but no big deal). He already weighs 10lbs 6ozs and is 22 inches long! What can I say, the boy loves to eat! Lol. He is slightly jaundiced, but the doctor said it's not serious enough to get him a light. We just have to keep him near an open window during the day to get him some sun light. I also noticed that he has a red ring around his left eyeball. The doctor said that it's a busted blood vessel (probably from going through the birthing process), and that it will heal itself up. So all in all he is a healthy little man :)

Oh and let me tell you what the little guy did to me today.. I'm filling out the papers for him at the doctor and he is sleeping in his car seat. He started making the horrid newborn poop noises, but I wasn't too worried because with him it usually sounds worse than it is.. well, not this time! He had a poo-explosion! It was all over him, all over the support in his car seat, and even soaked through to the car seat itself! It literally took me 10 minutes just to get him cleaned up. The outfit he was wearing had to be pulled over his head, so it got everywhere :( Then I am just about to put his diaper on, and he starts peeing! Lol. So then I had to clean him up again. Then I had to clean up his car seat. We were literally in the bathroom for 25 minutes LOL. I think his outfit *might* be salvagable. I washed it out with Dawn and then let it soak, so we'll see lol.

And last thing.. I am going to admit how much I weigh here..
So when I got pregnant I was 165 lbs.. In my first trimester I dropped down to 153 lbs. Just before Brentley was born I was up to 178 lbs (yikes!). I figured I would be bigger than I ever was before after he was born. But obviously I lost 10 lbs right off the bat because of my little chunker lol, so I finally got up the courage to weigh myself today think I'd probably be around 165 again.. Well guess what, I'm at 156 lbs!! Already lower than what I was when I got pregnant, and only 3 lbs away from lowest weight in my pregnancy and it's only been 6 days!! I'm very happy about that! I'd still like to lose more though.. I want to be back where I was before I had Grace (about 145 lbs). We'll see though. I'm really going to work at it this time.

***I just wanted to say, I know it seems like I am online a lot, but I promise I am not neglecting my babies. When I'm breastfeeding I can't really do much else, but sit and wait for him to finish, so I play on the computer to keep myself entertained lol.***