Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Where to start...
My name is Christina and I am 17 years old (I will be 18 on February 3rd). I am starting this blog to show that not all teenage mothers are terrible like the media tries to portray them. My blog will always be completely sincere accounts from my life. I want my story to be heard. Just a year ago I was a seemingly normal high schooler. Then in March of 2009 I found out that I was pregnant. My fiance, Chris, and I have been together since July 24th, 2007 and we have been engaged since February 3rd, 2008. He was excited when he found out, but at first I was scared because I did not think that my baby would have all the things I could give her if I was older, but I loved her no matter what. We are both completely against abortion, so that thought never crossed our minds, and adoption was not an option for us, we created this baby and we were going to take care of her.
There was only one thing in our way.. the parents. His mom was excited when she found out. My mom was disappointed, but not mad.. Then there's my dad. He was devastated for me and I am pretty sure he wanted to kill Chris. He blame Chris for all of it, saying that he ruin my life, and that I was never going to finish high school, and things like that. However, I am an self-proclaimed overachiever. I have a 4.0 GPA. I have made all A's in high school. There was no way I was dropping out right before my senior year. That would just be selfish on my part. Having a high school diploma will make life better for my baby and me. I also plan on going to college, but we're not to that point yet. As time went by my excitement grew. The first time I saw my baby on that ultrasound screen was amazing! I loved getting ultrasounds to see how she had changed and grown. And when I found out she was a girl I was so excited! Chris wanted a boy, but I could tell he was secretly a little happy when he found out she was a girl. We started buying clothes, and planning our life. My due date was November 3rd, and Chris moved in with me about 3 months before she was born, so that he would be there for us.
I loved being pregnant, however, I was the talk of the school.. "Omg I never thought you would be the one to get pregnant" was something I heard a lot. I guess that was because I have never drank, smoked, or done drugs in my life. I was the typical "good girl," but I didn't feel that awkward because there were 3 other girls at my school who were pregnant at the time and several who already had children. Plus all of my friends supported me. They did not treat me different at all. In fact I began talking to a girl who already had a baby girl, so that maybe I could get a heads up of what was to come, and we are best friends now. She has been amazing and such a big help to me, and she is a great mother herself!
The closer it got to her due date the more excited I got. The only things I wanted were for her to be healthy and that she not be born on Halloween. We had everything ready for when she came, and the most important thing.. we had her name picked out. Her name was Amberlee Grace. We picked Amberlee because my middle name is Amber and Chris' middle name is Lee, so we named her after both of us, and we decided that we would call her by her middle name, Grace, which means blessing, because she is our little blessing.
We had made it passed Halloween, and I was induced at 6:00 am on November 3rd, 2009 and Grace was born at 4:28 pm that same day (she was born only 50 minutes after one of my friends gave birth to her son Cayle). She weighed 14lbs 7oz, was 21 and a half inches long, and she was completely healthy. The moment I saw her I was speechless. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. She was perfect, and she was mine. I could not believe we had created something as wonderful as she was. I had only known her for a few seconds, but looking into her eye I knew I loved her more than the world itself.
She is almost 3 months old now, and I love her every bit just as much. There have been many sleepless nights and noisy days, but I would not change my life for anything. Every time I think I cannot possibly love her anymore she smiles at me and I realize it is possible. She is my world.
I had six weeks of maternity leave from school so I finished out the semester at home. Even with a baby I made all A's, so it is possible to go to school and have a baby. I am now back in school for my last semester. I only go half a day because I already had all my credits and I only needed to take Economics and Algebra 3. That allows me to spend more time with my baby :)
As far as Grace goes, she is wonderful. She does not cry a lot, she's healthy, and she's strong! She smiled about 5 minutes after she was born, and she was pretty much holding her head up from the start. However, she has had RSV (respiratory syncytial virus) twice, but she has not had to go to the hospital either time, which shows just how strong she really is. She also rolled from her back to her tummy for the first time on the bed just last week (which I missed because I was at school, but her daddy saw it), and yesterday she rolled from her back to her tummy on the floor (which I did see)! However, we also discovered yesterday that she is teething already!
We are hoping to move to our own place within two months. I would love to be able to say we had our own place!
I believe that is a pretty good summary of everything so far in my life as a teenage mother. Not all my posts will be this long, but I will try to post on here almost everyday.