Preparing to return to school...

Tomorrow is the last day in 2011. I cannot believe it is already the end of the year.
The day I have been dreading is almost here... January 9th I start school again. There is not one bit of me that WANTS to go back, but every bit of me knows that I NEED to go back for my family, so here I am, registered for five classes. The most I have ever taken at once, so that I can stay on track.

Tuesday, Brentley has a doctor's appointment (his four month check-up), and after that I have to go spend over $500 on my text books :( My dad said that we can probably get that money back through my college fund. That would be great! Then, I am going to Wal-Mart to buy paper, binders, pencils, etc. And then, depending on how Brentley is behaving, I may go shopping for the rest of my clothes. I need sweat pants for sure before I start school back because I am taking weight training.

I have also planned to get up about 30 minutes earlier than I normally would, so that I can feed him before I leave. He hates bottles, so I am terrified that he is not going to eat anything the whole time I am gone. If I feed him before I leave, I will at least know he had something. He usually sleeps for five hours at a time. If he had been asleep for five hours and I didn't feed him, then he refused to eat while I was gone, he would go ten hours without eating :( So, I'm not going to let that happen.

Another thing I have to do is organize my breastmilk. I have over 70 bags of breastmilk in the freezer. They all have dates on them, so I want to organize them by date. That way Chris can use the oldest ones first (because they are only good for 6 months, and the oldest ones have already been in there for three months). I believe that I have about 200 oz of breastmilk stored, which is better than I thought, and I still have 11 days to add to that. And I am going to continue to pump everyday after I start school. I decided that for the first couple of days of school I'm not going to try to pump at school. I want to figure out the best place to pump along whatever path I take to my classes. Plus, Brentley can eat baby food in February. Technically, he can eat it now, but I want to hold him off until he's six months old. Once we add baby food he won't need as much milk while I am gone because we can set his schedule up, so that he eats his baby food while I'm at school.

I know I talk about this all the time, but this is literally what is always on my mind. It takes me forever to fall asleep at night because I can't stop thinking about going back to school. What cute thing is Grace going to say while I'm gone? What if Brentley won't eat? What Brentley rolls over, sits up, crawls, says a word, or something while I'm gone? What if I can't handle school and two kids? How well will Chris handle two kids on his own? How are we going to manage to potty train Grace (which we are going to start doing in January)?
I lay awake laying out plans. Like, waking up early to feed Brentley. I also think of things I need to tell Chris. Like how to handle Brentley if he has a poo-explosion (Chris hates poo). Or how much Brentley should eat while I'm gone, and when Grace should eat while I'm gone. It just all seems so overwhelming right now. I know we will make it work, but until we are in the process of making it work, I am driving myself crazy lol.

Luckly we have both babies going to sleep by 11pm now. We are going to try to get them going to sleep at 10pm because I'm going to have to get up around 6am (I am so not a morning person). But at least Grace doesn't have her nights and days mixed up anymore like she did for the longest time after we came home from the hospital.

Okay, I know I'm rambling. I'll stop now lol. I have just a little over 10 days left until I start back. We can do this!

Got a jump start on one of my resolutions...

I went out to spend some of my Christmas money today. I went with the intention of trying on things I would normally try on, and I have to say, I am very proud of myself because I went out of my shell :)... for the most part lol.

I did stay in my shell a bit because I bought some jeans, but I needed them bad! I only had one pair that fit...
I got these.

(And no that is not me. I wish, but no. My legs are like half as long as hers lol.)

 $45 jeans for $15! That is my kind of sale!

I also got this purple dress from Target.

It was the last one left... originally $35, marked down to $13, and when I got to the register it rang up $7! I was in heaven lol.

I also got a shirt from Hollister. I normally don't shop there because they are crazy expensive, but I had a gift card, so I went for it.

I got this shirt.

It was originally like $50! I cannot imagine paying that for a shirt. I paid $27 for it, and that was still way too high for me! But hey, I had to use the gift card somehow.

And lastly, I bought these.

(except mine are black)

They are $40 boots that were on sale for $15!

All together I spent just under $70.

I still have money left on all the gift cards I used today, and I have two gift cards that I haven't even touched yet. I am on the lookout for some leggings, more dresses and cute tops, at least one more pair of jeans, some cute flats, some pants that are either navy or khaki, and some sweat pants (for the weight training class I am going to be taking this semester). 

I am determined to not be plain jane anymore!

Resolutions... do you have any?

I don't usually do the whole resolution thing, but this year I am. I have three.

1. Do not procrastinate!
I am the queen of procrastination, especially when it comes to school. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure it faults me. I can still crank out A grade work, but it does stress me out beyond belief. The longer I procrastinate, the more stressed out I get. I am done doing that to myself.

2. Dress nicely.
I have actually wanted to do this for a long time. I just haven't had the opportuntiy until now. I want dress stylish and girly and professional all in the same. That is what I want to be... A stylish, girly professional woman. I've been gathering tips from What Not To Wear. I know what type of clothes fit my body type, so now I just have to find them. I want more dresses and more accessories to dress-up my outfits. I also want fancy shoes. I want to be that girl with 100 pairs of beautiful shoes in her closet lol.

3. Lose weight.
I am back down to what I weighed when I got pregnant with Grace. Now I want to lose at least ten more pounds, so that I will be back to where I was when Chris and I first started dating. I would really like to lose 20 lbs, so that I would be back to where I was at 15. Not sure if that will ever happen tough. My lowest weight was 110 lbs. Oh how I miss that. Now, I would just be happy at 125 lbs.

Those are my resolutions. Do you guys have any?



Also, we spent the afternoon in the E.R. because Grace slipped and busted her lip on our end table. Blood waas pouring out of her mouth, and she had a hole on both the inside and outside of her lip, so I thought her tooth went through her lip. The doctor said it didn't though, so no stictches or anything. We just have to keep it clean. Once we got home, she was complaining about it hurting, so I gave her some Tylenol to knock out the pain.